I hate having to lie to my grandmother. We got those McDonalds coupons in the mail, you know the buy one Bigmac get a second free and other assorted cellulite makers book, and of course she wants to treat us to McDonalds. I can see how excited she was to buy it for us (my brother is on March break) and I feel so terrible for having to turn her down but I just can't do it. These are the times I hate Ana, when i have to see the disappointed look on her face, she just wanted to treat me. I am a terrible person.
But I'm still at 118. 118 is not a McDonalds weight. Well I don't think any weight is a McDonalds weight but I might say yes if my grandmother offers and I'm 105. Maybe even 110, but certainly NOT 118. And not when I'm on a daylight fast!
Speaking of which, things are going well. I went out for sushi last night with a friend and managed to keep my intake to Spicy Miso Soup (my favourite), Spicy Crab Rolls, and I even picked at Teriyaki Beef. She managed to eat three orders of sushi in the time it takes me to eat one but she knows I'm "not a big eater" and she doesn't comment. I love sushi but I really prefer going with big groups because I can eat less and go unnoticed.
As for today I started off with my Ballet stretches, plies, devlopes, etc etc. I know some of you are asking for which ones but I can't really write them all out, I don't think too much when i do them I just pretend I'm in class and let it flow. Then proceeded to do a saltwater flush to get rid of the sushi in me. Once I finish this post up I'll go for a run then work out my arms, abs and maybe even an hour on the elliptical.
I'm also starting a 3 day fast. (another reason to say no to McDs) A real fast, absolutely no food until Wednesday night. So far so good, but the first day is always the easiest. Tomorrow I have to go to a family dinner at my other grandmother's house. It's really stressing me out because unlike my mother they will notice if I don't eat. I'm going to hav to act real sick and maybe even just sip on chicken broth, which my grandmother always cooks... So not looking forward to it.
Growl on Angels,
Charlie
Oh, I am so glad I have found your blog! Your writing is so fun to read. I'm terribly jealous that you've been a dancer for so long. I've never taken a dance class or even had a real gym membership, I'm just too scared to exercise around other people, I'm too afraid they'll see all my fat giggly around. :( But, I've always believed I can teach myself to do anything with the use of the internet, so I've gotten by with instructional videos and DVDs and the occasional TV workout program. I don't think I could really learn ballet online though, lol, but perhaps there are some videos on youtube about beginners' moves/stretches. You've inspired me! :)
ReplyDelete<3 And thank you for the comment on my blog, I definitely feel like I'm getting back on track finally!
you inspire me so so so much!
ReplyDeletei'm on my second year of ballet. i bet you're the skinny dancer everyone hates :)
your blog makes me feel like poo. but it makes me want to fast and exercise more, so i love it.
please keep writing!
much love
xoxo
I live with my grandmother and when she cooks, it's so hard to say no to her because I don't want to make her disappointed. But great job saying no to the McD's though! Glad your daylight fast is still working for you, and good luck with your 3 day fast. You're lucky your first day of fasting is easy for you- usually the first day is the devil for me! Oh man, sushi is amazing stuff! I love the veggie sushi the best :).
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